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Aug 10

Noticing

I am in the midst of a major transition and struggling to make sense of everything.  Where do I want to be?  How do I want to live?  What makes me happy?

Intellectually, I know it’s too early to answer all these questions.  I have been back in San Francisco less than a month after spending two years in Barcelona.  But my heart wants answers!  Or, so it thinks.  So, I have decided to just notice what’s going on.  Notice how it feels to drive again after two years without a car.  Notice how it feels to have a house full of my stuff after two years in a small furnished apartment.  Notice how it feels to watch my kids go to a new school.  Notice how it feels to be somewhere so familiar, yet so strange.

I don’t need to understand or judge how I’m feeling right now.   I can just notice.   And that takes a weight off my shoulders.   It’s like I’m collecting data to refer to at some later time when I’m not in the midst of so much change.

What do you notice about how you are living and feeling?