Posts Tagged ‘noticing’

I feel a bit like a broken record these days.  I keep telling my clients to notice, notice, notice.  And so I thought, I’m going to write a post about noticing.  But then I thought, hummmm, I think I might already have done that!   And yes, there is it…noticing (August 25, 2010).  But I still want to write this because I don’t think we notice enough.  Or we leap away from noticing as from a dangerous animal.

I feel sad…no, that’s uncomfortable.

I feel scared…no, don’t do that.

My heart is racing…what’s wrong with me?

I feel great…something’s going to go wrong.

My head hurts…what should I do?

I could go on and on.  We can always leap away from staying where we are…good or bad, comfortable or uncomfortable.  The great thing about noticing is that it’s only that; making an observation.  It’s not a judgment, it’s not a solution…it’s just a statement or series of statements.  The thinking, analyzing, taking action can come later.  For now, just notice.  But notice.  Don’t push it away.  Let it sink in and see what happens.

Yesterday I noticed I was feeling off, angry, sad, frustrated.  It was really uncomfortable, but I decided to let it just be.  Today I’m feeling a bit better and am starting to take some action.

I am in the midst of a major transition and struggling to make sense of everything.  Where do I want to be?  How do I want to live?  What makes me happy?

Intellectually, I know it’s too early to answer all these questions.  I have been back in San Francisco less than a month after spending two years in Barcelona.  But my heart wants answers!  Or, so it thinks.  So, I have decided to just notice what’s going on.  Notice how it feels to drive again after two years without a car.  Notice how it feels to have a house full of my stuff after two years in a small furnished apartment.  Notice how it feels to watch my kids go to a new school.  Notice how it feels to be somewhere so familiar, yet so strange.

I don’t need to understand or judge how I’m feeling right now.   I can just notice.   And that takes a weight off my shoulders.   It’s like I’m collecting data to refer to at some later time when I’m not in the midst of so much change.

What do you notice about how you are living and feeling?